Hi everyone. My name is Sarah. I’ve been writing in this space since April of 2011. I used to be ashamed to admit that. If you dig waaaayyy back deep (please don’t) into my archives, you’ll see the very first iteration of this blog. I wrote a lot about my girls (look, they rolled over today, yay!), and I tried to copy popular styles of posts from other I saw who were successful. It was tiring. To those who blog full time with newborns in your home, I salute you.
Reinventing Yourself in the Middle of the Year
When people ask me, “When did you start blogging?” I usually only admit to “taking it seriously” 3 years ago.
3 years ago I discovered I could make some extra cash for our bills through blogging. That was exhilirating. I could pay for our summer pool membership. I could buy some new clothes. I could pay for spring soccer! The idea of money made me feel empowered. Somewhere along the way, I lost myself. I started attending conferences, learning the confusing ever-changing world of what to do and what not to do in terms of SEO and social media. Did I mention I had no idea what SEO was until 2 years ago? I just wrote what I wanted, yo.
Time to get back to that.
A Fresh Outlook
I can’t unlearn the things I’ve learned. I know too much now to go back to the way I was before. Nor do I want to, really. I was such a poser. Doing crafts and forcing recipes on myself in the name of making money. Going viral. Gaining followers.
Last week, I spend 8 days with my family. 5 of those days were at Walt Disney World. 3 of those days were on a Disney Cruise Line vacation. I was there attending Disney’s Social Media Moms Celebration which celebrates people like me who blog and create in the space we have online.
My head was spinning when I got home.
What should I write about first? What’s going to stand out from the crowd? What can I do first that will bring me the most traffic? Stop. Just stop it.
I can’t even believe I typed that sentence. Utterly ridiculous.
Listen, there are amazing women out there who hustle hard and support their entire family doing what I’m doing. I thought I wanted that. I discovered last week that I do not. My husband has an amazing job. It pays well and makes him happy.
I have an amazing job. I get to hang out at home, write on this blog, write on other websites, or go hang out at my girls’ school when they need me. I can also sit on my couch and read a book. Or watch Netflix. Or go outside and turn the world off for a bit.
Staying True to Myself
The truth is, I’m fine with my life the way it is. Would I love to go viral and get a million pageviews? Sure. Who wouldn’t? Can you imagine the kind of ad revenue that would bring in?
Getting to that level takes hard work. I’m already in a committed relationship with myself. My family. My friends. I don’t really have room to have that kind of relationship with my blog. I posted a similar “micro blog” on Instagram, about this very thing, but I wanted to flesh it out a little more here.
I hope you will continue to support me as a switch gears here. I used to be afraid of posting “too much Disney” here, but, honestly? That’s one of the things I love the most. Also, fashion. I stopped posting outfits because I was terrified of judgement. I don’t have anyone to take my photos during the day, and I can’t buy a new outfit every week. Who cares? Please let me know if you don’t like what I’m wearing. We can have a great discussion in the comments and hey, it will get me pageviews! Ha!
I never picked a word for 2018, but I think I have one now. Me. 2018 is the year of me. Not the year of you or her or him. Me.
Time to get to work.